Cutting ties.

I did it. I took the huge step that I had been so scared to take. I had the support of my husband, which was key for me. So, I have roughly two weeks left of work–with a side trip to Chicago. I am so excited about this trip! It is a food blogher conference. So very interesting, exciting and invigorating! When I get back, I have pre-ops and a big surgery for the kidney stones. So, my life will be extremely crazy, flipped upside down and all over the place in the next few weeks. I pray that God shows me the way that I need to go to follow His plan for me and my family. I do know there is so much that I want/need/must do for my family and household. My house is disgusting and disorganized! Yuck! But when have I had time or energy to be the person that I want to be for my family? I haven’t! Now, I will be able to do it! Keep me in your prayers! I need it!

Back to the grind…

I am a big chicken. Yep, couldn’t do it. I wanted to do it. Take the leap of faith, but nope. I chickened out. I need to take time for me and my family. My health has been really shaky lately. I am one of those freaks that makes kidney stones –enough for a third world country. I am getting ready to turn it around. 11/16/15 and I am working on fixing me. Not anything at work, it is coming to a head- and I am getting ready to take my life back. Not just for me, but for my husband and my boys. Life is TOO short for me to be miserable. I am going to do it. I will figure out how to do this, for me and my family.

These guys matter to me.
These guys matter to me.

Ugh what a day…

I have been miserable. I’m sick which stinks because I sound like Phoebe in that episode of Friends.  Remember when she was sick and had the sexy voice for singing “smelly cat”? Yep. That’s about it.  So pile that on with how I depressed I have been with my current situation, which I won’t elaborate on thru the Internet- I’m just close to my wits end.
So, for now, I leave you with the sexy rendition of Smelly Cat. Smelly Cat, Smelly cat, what have I been feeding you?…

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At the starting line?

Who knows? I sure don’t. I am struggling through life with the usual issues of juggling family and work. But, I feel like God is testing me. I seem to be the person that gets everything piled on me and I want to do it all because I have the need to be a people pleaser. I can’t say no. I have my boys, one that is determined to try to not go to school and one with special needs that keep me from getting a full night’s sleep on any given night. I have a husband, that can’t work because of medical issues and and a job that makes me cry just by driving into work. Oh, and I can’t forget that I help my 91 yr old grandfather every night. Yep, I lead a dull and boring life.

I guess I am starting a blog for several different reasons. But the main reason, I want to be heard as a mom of boys, mom of a special needs child, and even as just a mom or wife or whatever I happen to talk about on that day. I have a voice and I want to be able to talk about things, whether it is crafting, cooking, cleaning, parenting or just being me.